820222 - Stormy

Hola everybody! Once again it’s me updating the world about what I’m feeling at the moment. What do you think? He he he .. There are sometimes I feel suddenly very happy and sometimes it’s for no reason. I was stressed a bit this morning but now I’m super dooper happy. I don’t even know why. I was listening to this song by Park Hye Kyeong, BaBo. It’s a nice song. Taken from the original soundtrack of Wonderful Life. Remember Wonderful Life? it was on channel 8 back a few weeks ago. A Korean drama which includes Kim Jae Won and my lovely Eugene! The song somehow just make my day. By the way, BaBo here means Stay. So the title means Stay. Babo can also means stupid doh .. so don’t missed pronounced it.

BaBo - Wonderful Life OST (Park Hye Kyeong)

oh yeah… oh yeah
Yeongwonhi yeongwonhi nawa hamkkeramyeon haengbok halkkeoya
Ijeya algetni
han beon deo malhalkke nege eongolrineun geon nappuniya
nae doo nooneul barabwa
geu mameul gyeote doolkkeoya geurae dagawa, naege dagawa

Gaggeumeun jeoleobsi goolgiman haneun neoege
naega jichyeo manyang yalmi ool ddaedo isseo
geuraedo gyeolgooken nae pyeoni dwi eojooneun neo
babo gatteun neoreul naebeoryeo dooji mothae
naega badajwo ya hajanha

hola people .. ha ha ha. I just came back from Taman Sungai Besi Indah. I came to visit my lecturer Mr.Jung. After praise and worship session with his family, I followed them back to their house which is not that far from their Taekwondo dojo, somewhere near Mines Shopping Fair. We had kunch together at their house and guess what, i don’t even know that actually koreans celebrate lunar new year also until they told me just now. So, we had nice dishes prepared by Mrs.Jung. This is the first time in my life eating fresh Korean cuisine! Marvellous, I’ve been dying to know how does kimchi taste like, splendid but I do get a little bit of stomach discomfort. I think I’m not used to the spicy and salty fermented vege. But it was dead drop delicious. We had thoraji ( I guess that’s the name ). More or less like acar for sarawakians - those you eat with keropok during raya or gawai back home. And another dish would be the jap chae, like clear noodles la. Fuyoo .. sedap you … ha ha ha. Let me story a bit about this celebration.

Jongwol Daeborum is one of the Korean holidays that has been observed since the times of the Shilla Dynasty. There are various things that are done and even more things that are eaten on Jongwol Daeborum.

First, people wake up early morning and give kwibalgi sul to the elders in the family. This custom is kept alive in the hope that it will sharpen the elders’ ears and they hear good news throughout the year.
Peanuts, walnuts, chestnuts etc. are eaten on arising early in the morning. They must eat as many nuts as the number of years they have lived. This custom is called ‘Burom Kkada’. It is said you must not speak before you finish eating the nuts. ‘Burom’ is the hard rind or shell of the fruits such as the ones of walnuts, pine nuts, peanuts, etc. It is also the abbreviation of the word ‘busurom’ which is a skin trouble that appears on the face. These days there is plenty of food so there are not many people with ‘busurom’, but in the old days there was not an abundancy of food so there were many people suffering from this facial skin disease due to malnutrition. There are ten times more nutrients in peanuts and walnuts than in rice, which is why if you feed these nuts to children from an early age you can prevent them from getting skin diseases for one year. The wisdom of our ancestors is uncomparable. If you follow the ‘burom kkagi’ tradition you will not get skin diseases for a whole year. And since ‘burom kkagi’ is a very noisy process(?) it is said that the evil spirits and demons become scared and run away at the sound of the loud cracking noises. In addition, another of the purposes of this custom is to strengthen the teeth.

In the morning of Jongwol Daeborum, there is another custom called ‘Towi palgi’. ‘Towi palgi’ is the custom of ’selling one’s heat to another person’. This is the way to do it. On the morning of Jongwol Taeborum, you wake up in the wee hours of the morning before the sun rises and go to your friend’s house and call him. If your friend answers it is said that your friend has ‘bought your heat’. Since your friend has ‘bought your heat’ your friend will suffer twice as much heat that particular summer. And the person who has ’sold his heat’ will not suffer from heat at all that year. But if your friend tactfully says " buy my heat" instead of responding to your call, you will end up ‘buying your friend’s heat’. That is why on the morning of Jongwol Daeborum, many times people will pretend not to know you and will not respond when you call their names. Since Daeborum is a holiday that is situated at the end of the harsh winters, it purports the sincere wish of our ancestors of driving away the upcoming summer heat.

Why do Koreans put such importance on the first full moon of the lunar year?
In the old times, our ancestors considered the full moon a mysterious occurrence. They were especially excited on the night of the full moon on viewing a pale full moon. That is why they considered more precious the first full moon of the lunar year and therefore called it ‘Taeborum’ (Big moon). At night, people climb the top of a mountain at the rear of the village and do the ‘Talmaji’ or ‘viewing of the moon’. On Jongwold Daeborum it is said that if you say your wishes for that year, they will come true. It is also said that the first person to see the full moon will be blessed with more luck than the others which is why people compete to be the first to climb the highest place and view the moon.
This custom of ‘talmaji’ started because since old times Koreans worshipped and considered the full moon as a light that drove away darkness, an object that represented and promised the realization of their desire for a brighter world.
As you all remember during Chusuk, a holiday that we have introduced above, we also made wishes at the moon. Also, peasants were told their fortunes while viewing the first full moon. The moonlight rays of the  full moon would differ according to the different locations where it was viewed? If the moonlight was white, it meant that heavy rains would fall, if it was red, it meant that there would be droughts, if it was grey it meant that it would be a year of famine, if it was thick(strong) and visible it meant that it would be a year of abundance.
When the next Jongwol Daeborum comes around, make a wish. The ancestors that have listened to the wishes of our ancestors will surely listen to yours.

glad it’s holiday again. after all these fuss about the camps and so on this few weeks, i finally got nothing to worry about now. actually i still got paper coming up after holidays. not thinking about it now. it’s holiday man, don’t waste your time studying! ha ha ha … don’t take that seriously. you might end up being like me. me dad called today. he just came out from operation. something like a rock inside the … ermm .. i don’t know which part. he’s okay now, recovering. God bless him and the whole family.

Waitin’, watchin’ the clock, it’s four o’clock, it’s got to stop
Tell him, take no more, she practices her speech
As he opens the door, she rolls over…
Pretends to sleep as he looks her over
She lies and says she’s in love with him, can’t find a better man…
She dreams in color, she dreams in red, can’t find a better man…
Can’t find a better man (2x)
Ohh…

Talkin’ to herself, there’s no one else who needs to know…
She tells herself, oh…
Memories back when she was bold and strong
And waiting for the world to come along…
Swears she knew it, now she swears he’s gone
She lies and says she’s in love with him, can’t find a better man…
She dreams in color, she dreams in red, can’t find a better man…
She lies and says she still loves him, can’t find a better man…
She dreams in color, she dreams in red, can’t find a better man…
Can’t find a better man (2x)
Yeah…

She loved him, yeah…she don’t want to leave this way
She feeds him, yeah…that’s why she’ll be back again
Can’t find a better man (3x)
Can’t find a better…man…
Ohh…ohh…
Uh huh… (5x)
Ohh…

This is one of my all time favourite. Betterman by Pearl Jam. Most of the kids today they don’t know who is Pearl Jam. What more to say Alice In Chains, Soundgarden, Screaming Trees. These are the so called fore fathers of Seattle music. NIRVANA is one of them. It’s a nice song actually. Try to listen to it if you have time. If you want me to sing for you, contact me. Ha ha ha …

Back again here in front of the pc. Quite early to sum up my day I guess. Well basically I will not be doing anything today. I got up quite early today and was supposed to meet Joseph in K2 to give him the key. But I woke up at 7:58 just 2 minutes before I’m supposed to meet him. So I sent an sms to him saying that, just meet me at my faculty then. Easier. Cause for all I know, I’ll be at the faculty’s computer lab for the whole day. I do taht almost everyday. That’s why you won’t see me posting anything during the weekends. He he he .. that’s pretty much about that. My life? Boring … sometimes I enjoyed being boring and slumber. It keeps me young and moving. Ha ha ha .. U might think that I’m talking nonsense here, well … that’s your opinion, I don’t have the right to say you’re right or wrong, neither do you. He he he .. it’s fair and square I guess.

Everyone’s gone back for chinese nu yer. Me? I’m putting myself in a coffin for one whole week. I got nothing to do man .. darn it. Everyone had their plannings and except for Sam. Yess .. my old buddy Sam. Tell you a little bit about us, or maybe for exact him. He’s my ex-classmate from form 1-3. We are the so called Yakinans .. he he he .. I made that up. He’s a smart ass. After form 3 he moved to SMS Miri, ooohhh … that hurts. He’s a traitor. Ha ha ha … It’s been a long while since I last saw him though … the last time was in 2001. That was like 5 years ago? He must have change a lot man .. He got a girl now. Ha ha ha … Good for him. He needed that I think. Go Go Go Sam … he he he.

Dread, they’ll be no ang pow for me this year as usual like any other year. I don’t get so many angpow these days. He he he .. maybe they think that it’s time for me to give them one. That will happen, but still very very far. My aunt is getting married this June, same goes with one of my classmate, Rowena. We’re all classmates actually. At 23? I can imagine myself doing that. I haven’t got any proper job yet, no car , no driving license even. What I have is me and my own self. I think I’ll just live with that. Chow guys .. see ya in the nearest future!

The end is the beginning is the end

I was listening to BK Love by Mc Sniper. It’s a cool song anyway. But you can feel how sad is the song eventhough you don’t understand a word of it. It was taken from the motion picture soundtrack of WINDSTRUCK. For those who have watched the movies you might be fermilliar with the hip hop beat when Ji Hyun fired a shot at the criminal’s ferrari. That’s when the song was played. It was so cool and it moved me. When you hear the heart beat sound from the intro, I feel like I can hear my heart beats too. It was so tentalizing that I can listen to the same song everyday. I might get bored of it but that’s not the case. talking about windstruck, I was thinking, how would I react if that thing happened to me? What if I’m in Ji Hyun’s place? Well, might be slighly different because I’m a guy and a guy don’t cry a lot (That’s what most people will say). How true is that? To lose someone that you really love and care about and knowing that you’re not going to see him/her again. Carrying the guilt that you think he/her died because of you? Can you live with that? Can I? I don’t know. The song actually breathe life to that sad part of the movie …

here is the traslation for the song, I was trying very hard ask here and there then I got this from a friend. I can only read hangul but without understanding what’s the meaning. Enjoy this song peeps.

MC Sniper > 1 > translation

05. Bk Love (ft. BK)
translation by: jun gie (also credit: aheeyah.com)

Did you know of my heart? Of the days
that I spent really thinking of only you?
However as my heart for you grew as much as possible
I had to have a even harder time. I had to fall into the fire.
Now because I am worn out, I don’t have the confidence to look at you.
Yea, I hate myself too for wanting to act selfish by turning my back on you and running away.
However I found out too late, when I knew that I found out that I liked you.
But then it was too late, everything had changed.
I, who was so poor, had lost all the confidence and strength to talk to you.
But I felt awkward about myself for thinking that, that was fine like that.
I really didn’t know that this would be this hard until now.
I realized it too late.

All of this will probably sound like an explaintoin to you, but my love was only you.
Yea, you must know just this one thing, that there is no one who can love you as much as I.
All of this will probably sound like an explaintoin to you, but my love was only you.
Yea, you must know just this one thing, that there is no one who can love you as much as I.

To me who is turned around looking at you,
there is now more sadness. Oh baby.
I can’t let go of the finished love.
I can’t cry over the sadness. Oh baby, please.

The saddened voice of my friend washes over my heart.
The ended love story that was already wrong to begin with.
I can’t even ask of the pain of my friend and the
sadness I can’t understand, so I sing a song.
You really loved that girl who was like a flower petal, and for
her you spent alot of time alone, preparing love.
The tears that you shed so that that one flower could bloom,
could not protect the light and so
the flower became dirt and blew away.
As you passed the many days and nights with a sigh
The last thought of decision comes to conclusion roughly.
That by no means does the end of love for her, for you come easily.
Always you all’s love that was never granted,
meets up there in the sky as two lights.
You will become a shooting star drawn in the sky and in the
next life that love will surely be granted, I pray.

My friend still loves that girl.
However for her, my friend says he’s going to leave.
When I think that this is love, I can’t breathe.
So my friend must still be crying. "bk"

To me who is turned around looking at you,
there is now more sadness. Oh baby.
I can’t let go of the finished love.
I can’t cry over the sadness. Oh baby, please.

How you define life? Maybe that’s a little bit hard to answer for some reason, I think. Are you happy with your life now? There’s a big question there .. he he he. It seems like I’ve been talking about the same old thing everytime. I need a smack in the head I guess. Chill out … This is supposed to be where I let out all of my anger, hate, love, happiness or whatever shit that happened. You know one funny thing about me? I always think that I’m good enough to beat everybody but when I’m on the battle ground, I got chicken out. It’s the same case now. When I was working, I was so busy and so not interested in life as a university student. I never really care about money when I was a student, but when I start to work, I start to worry about a lot of things. Simple things like do I have enough money to go to work tomorrow? What can I have for lunch today. It’s all very tensioning sometimes. When I got back, I was exhausted and thinking of KLCC, I feel like I want to quit KLCC. I just couldn’t cope with the pressure. To be honest, if it wasn’t for my manager and my sales team mates, I would have resign on the first day. and now that I’m leaving the company for a few months, after a few weeks back as a student, I don’t want to go back to work. It’s all so frightening. But I guess it takes time. nothing is pretty much easy in the first few months of working. well, I would like to share a song with you guys, it was taught by some korean kids KIDS Heaven Pusan, a song which brings the meaning of blessings according to them. I can hardly tell u the meaning, but it is a nice song :

"Dang shin neun sarang baki wi hae te yo nan saram

Dang shin nae sam sogesso sarang bako iitchiyo"

Means something like, you were born to this world to bring happiness to the world and the world bring hapiness to you .. I don’t know .. something in between.

Just want to share with you guys this song. I think it’s a nice song and very meaningful. I wish I could write something like this. It’s a cool nice song. Enjoy!

YOU AND ME - LIFEHOUSE

What day is it? And in what month?
This clock never seemed so alive
I can’t keep up and I can’t back down
I’ve been losing so much time

What day is it?
And in what month?
This clock never seemed so alive

Trying very hard to catch up with what I’ve missed these past few years. Well, sometimes it does feel nice to come back to you when you were you. Am I confusing you? Nevermind then. Often when I think of what I really want in life, I came out with no answer. It seems like it’s very hard to think of. I’m a dreamer. I try to think that life, no matter how hard it is, I will take it easy. Well, to be honest sometimes it does work and sometimes it doesn’t. Most of the time it doesn’t. I remember that last time in school I wanted to have a girlfriend because everybody have one and in the end I realize that it was not what I want. Life is a game of poker. It’s how do you play with your cards, it’s not pure luck. You must know how to handle it well. Each bet you place you must be sure of it. The amount that you bet on also shows how confident are you on that bet. The best bet would be ALL IN, that’s when you’re 100% confident in your card. But remember, It might be your last bet. So, think carefully.

Not the happiest day of my life, but I’m happy that I’m living my life the best that I can. past few days have been very nothing I think. We went for steamboat last nite at the MIZI Shabu-Shabu, Puchong. It was nice. We went there for a farewell party for my friend’s. She’ll be going for Industrial Training back in Sibu. It’s not that she’s not going to be back here, but by that time, he’ll be moving to another house. So that’s pretty much about it. I’ll post up the pics when I got it. At the moment it’s still in the camera. How I wish I had my own camera. Then I don’t have to wait.

Life can be rather boring without a camera. Don’t you think so?

Will it be the end of everything? - Archie

men’s best friend. I’m him, and he’s me. happy chinese new year to all of you who are celebrating.