820222 - Stormy

It has been quite a while since my last post and some have been asking where the hell am I la, it seems like I just dissapered after my birthday, even before that. Sorry guys, I was busy and running here and there for the past few days .. and in fact the rest of the week. With ICC coming up, annual dinner (yesterday) and also coffee Morning (yesterday) all in one shot, how I wish I can divide myself and at least have a part of me in front of the pc writing blog!

Just want to share with you guys about our previous annual dinner which was held at Restoren Nelayan, bangi. quite and ulu place also la. It has a nice deco, of course malay like deco .. the place was superbly hot! (Hot in a sense that i’m freakin wet). Well it doesn’t really matter for me coz, what’s important I enjoyed myself and feel really glad to be a part of CSSUPM. This is my 5th annual dinner to be frank .. and I hope that this will be the last annual dinner that i’ll be going as a final year student.

To conclude the night, I actually sang 2 of my songs which actually not many people had listened to it yet. I posted the lyrics some time ago. titled, WILL IT BE? and also MIRACLE … For the first time in my life, I was nervous on stage. I stutter, I don’t know what to say and started singing. I guess, I’m not used to sing my own song in public. Before this I just sang in the bathroom .. u know la. But frankly, when somebody came to me and said .. It was touching, I was like … to be honest, when I sang Miracle, I almost cried .. not there yet .. but I almost did. When I saw everybody was quite and listening tentatively, I was like … I don’t know how to describe the feeling but I think I feel the same way too .. I was saying that : " from the very first moment I pick up my guitar, I start to play a song. It was called - About A Girl (Nirvana) .. ever since then I’ve been singing songs, about a girl .. I’m not going to sing that song (about a girl) tonight. I wrote something back a few months ago, not really .. It was somewhere in June, and this song is about a girl." - MIRACLE.

Well, I start to believe that "What comes out from the heart, and you sang it out from your heart, will eventually touches the heart" - I modified that. It was taken or adapt from Iris’ qoute in the last KLCC meeting - "What comes from the heart, touches the heart".

I started to tell myself, everything happened fro a reason, and I’m glad that I have a bunch of freinds like you guys, that read my blogs and make my day. God bless all of you.

PS: I watched Fun With Dick & Jane today!

Taken from "Time Will Tell"

Now that the memories are gone

Fade away as time goes by

Will it be possible to turn back time?

Will it be too much to ask for?

I missed those times

I missed those nights

Will it all come back to me?

Will it all come back to me?

Time will tell

I was browsing through the net and check in deep into my inbox, I found this. Something I wrote a few years ago I guess. Well, I thought it was a very good masterpiece. He he he … well, to all of you who have been with me all these time, friends, I love you all.

I was reading Raph’s blog on the topic "True Love Waits" . I was reading all those comments and one of the comment said that :

* Girl asked, "Is it easy to break up?”
Boy replied, “I guess so…”
Girl said, “Then, let us break up.” ~

Just want to bring this into discussion la. Since it’s February and it’s all about love this month. (Yeah Yeah cibol). I’m not going to comment on that statement but I open it to you guys. Just want to share with you guys. Frankly, I’m the type of guy that don’t dare to make a decision on break ups. I just have no guts to say it out, eventhough I don’t have feelings for my partner anymore. I have this thinking in my blardy head that it’s not a nice thing to do. A gal cannot take it. It’s different when a gal say it to me, I can take it. I won’t cry. That’s what I always put in mind la. I guess, I think that it’s a very wrong perception but frankly, that’s how I work, operate, I just can’t change it. Care to share your views on this?

I was thinking of something to blog about when I was on my way to the cc just now. A cool catchy title, and I’d love to write something about it. But suddenly it just like dissapeared. And suddenly this is what I wrote on my blog. Ha ha ha … I have used like 45 images for this month, so guys … sorry to say, the post this time is without pics. Ha ha ha … so kemut la frenster, 50 pics only mana cukup beb?

I was reading blogs from frens that I know (of course you know them when it’s your fren la - so stupid no skuling ah you cibol!) a moment ago. Some of them blog about life, share quotes and share pics also la. So nice la. Can I blogged in Iban? (sure can la, everything is on your farking fingertips you freakin maggot!) But I guess, nadai orang nemu legi. (nobody knows later on - a direct translation)

Owh ya .. now I remember, I was thinking of this movie Addicted To Love. I watched it yesterday on tv2. Interesting story. I’ve been a sucker for romantic comedies all this time and yeah .. this one really make my day. But as the story goes on, I sense that it’s actually a very sad story. A very very sad one .. eventhough they made the story like one hell of a circus but the story is really sad. In a sense that I can really feel how Sam feel. I experienced the same thing that Sam does. Not till the extend that destroying someone’s life la. I can’t really give you a synopsis on it. Wait .. I’ll try.

ADDICTED TO LOVE is a movie that allows the audience to indulge in a fantasy those of us who aren’t clinically insane rarely get to fulfill in real life – revenge on a lover who’s truly screwed us over. What keeps it from ever resorting into true ugliness is the innate personalities of its stars Meg Ryan and Matthew Broderick. This is as cruel as these actors have ever been allowed to be and because we like them so much, their shenanigans to torture their ex-lovers don’t seem so bad.

Their plan is to break the couple up and rob Anton of every ounce of dignity he possesses. During the day, they play wicked tricks on him – fake underwear and receipts in the apartment, lipstick and perfume on his clothes – in an attempt to make Linda suspicious. At night, they watch the "show" to see what their deviousness brings forth. Their common goal brings them closer and they begin enjoying the time they spend together. It’s easy to see why they would be attracted to each other. Neither has encountered the other’s type before. Their differences are so great, they almost don’t give in to the attraction they feel for the other.

See, sad … but you watch it then you know la. Susah susah saja. By the way, today’s Iris birthday. To anyone that knows Iris, let’s sing her a happy birthday song …. ehem ..

Happy Birthday to you 2x

Happy Birthday to Iris ……. jeng jeng jeng

Happy Birthday to you

Regards,

Archie

This past few days everyone has been talking about LOVE on their blogs. I guess love is very much felt and around all of us at the moment. Here we go again. Ha ha ha … I’ve been reading kennysia.com the past few hours. This guy wrote got blogs man. Worth my time reading it, most important he don’t just talk cock like other people do. He wrote about how Valentine’s Day in Japan and Korea are so much different from what we have here. You guys go and read yourself la. Worth reading it. He he he .. It’s all about buying gifts and stuffs.

Yesterday actually I plan just to hang out with some friends I knew back in high school. Sad, all of them are occupied. So, I sat in front of the pc and read kenny’s blog. Ha ha ha … at least there’s something to do. So I log on to my yahoo msgr and saw a few of my friends .. (yeah … ada jugak orang yang tak pegi betenet malam ni) sad, again … nobody replied me. Ha ha ha ..  cilaka these people. No la .. joking only. Everyone is well busy man … BonKKersz, Isaac all busy … they go ehem ehem I guess .. ha ha ha.

U know what? Today I took this personality test. It’s called the care bear something la margret forward to me. Not literally but it was in her blog. Ha ha ha … shitt. Margret is going to sue me for this!!!!  U know what I got, a love bear. Please la … (cheh don’t want to admit) ha ha ha … thanks for the test that made me a little insufficiently macho.

Good to hear that my friends are constantly blogging from now on. What can I say, Raph .. good start. You know what actually keep me blogging? I realized that somebody does hear me out, they read my blogs, they share their feelings with me. I really feel connected sometime. I feel apreciated (so lame) .. ha ha ha .. well, before this I don’t really se why I should blog. and now I guess, I pretty much know how does it feels like. So guys, keep on blogging in the free world. Rock on dudes and dudettes!

Regards,

Archie

Valentine’s Day is one of the most celebrated day in this world today, I guess so. Not just lovers, friends, families are also celebrating it. Same goes for me. He he he .. what an intro. Well I guess it’s Happy Valentine’s Day to everybody then. What do I really think of the day itself? Ermm … it’s normal la. Like any other day. Just would like to share with you guys some things that I thought can be stupid and can also be sweet la … ha ha ha.

Ever think if cooking something posh and nice for your dates on Valentine’s Day? He he he .. imagine you and your partner having a romantic candle light dinner. With wine and the music. Ohhh … indahnya suasana. Ha ha ha … Well, somewhere around 2 years ago I guess. It was a few days before Valentine’s Day. I was like, what am I going to plan for the day? and she on the other hand has been asking for surprises la like gifts and stuffs. To be honest, at the time, to make the situation worst, my dad forgot to bank in my pocket money for that whole week. He left for training in Kuching without banking in money weekly allowence! OmiGOd!!

I was like, mati la this .. no money what to do. The actual plan was to take her to have an expensive dinner. I don’t really mind spending once in a while (macam hari hari ja—curiga aku). What I did was after that, I bought some beef burgers .. u know la the RAMLY burger. It’s nice u know. I bought some black pepper sauce and a few bottles of sparkling ribena. Well, I don’t want to spoil the mood while I already promised a nice dinner.

Come that day, yeah … I thought it was funny and sweet indeed. I mean, not being able to spend on expensive meal, but I manage to find a substitute for the steak and wine which is the RAMLY burger and Ribena for wine. I thought it was really smart of me. Ha ha ha … well, we enjoyed our dinner and I think that was a memorable night for me, a memorable Valentine’s Day also I guess. We had some mp3’s on for exchange of the violin sound that u know .. the one always on romantic movies, where these people had dinner and then got a few violinist by their side playing some romantic tracks. He he he .. How I was thankful of the technology that we have.

One conclusion here, it doesn’t have to be expensive, but it must comes from the heart. Because what comes from the heart, touches the heart. Until next time, hugs and kisses.

Regards,

ArChYeE

Hello peeps .. It’s me again. Yeah the same old me, writting this blog again and again. Enough of all those depressing sad stories I guess. Nobody evr commented on it. Ha ha ha … you know what? My aunt gave me a msg on my frenster and ask how am I doing and stuffs … I fel really blessed, at least there are people who really cares for me … kamsahamnida ajumma! (cannot say ajumma la that’s like really auntie like that .. I forgot the word for younger aunty) Whatever la .. she’s the best aunt I’d ever had. Ha ha ha .. Sorry putting your pics here without permission, but at least I’m not anything bad about you hor …

Well, what do I smell, love scent or should I say, Scent of Love? .. Love is in the air. Everyone is in the mood for Valentine’s Day. Don’t lie la .. you might say that everyday is valentine’s day la but the hard truth is, people still buy choco and flowers for ur partners on this day rite? If you’re not given anything on this particular day you will feel dissapointed rite? Dun lie la … ( No No No No baby No No No No don’t lie — I like that song). This time around, I’m celebrating it alone. Duh … I sounds so boring is it? Ok la .. I’ll crash out at any bachelor’s party that time. Guys, I need some help … if you’re having parties or whatsoever .. please .. please do invite me, coz I don’t want to spend another nite alone .. ha ha ha … what a pathetic life I have. Hey .. ok, no depressing words … I’m not depress .. huuuuushaaaaaaa … (taking a deep breath) that’s much better.

I’ve been spending my time reading some of my frens’ blog. Some of them started to write blogs. I’m happy for them. Ha ha ha .. like ralph .. he just wrote his 2nd post in the blog. Ha ha ha .. well, at least there’s an update on what’s on his mind at the moment. I think the picture is funny doh .. The insanity of CNY. That’s what he said. Way to go bro .. keep on rocking in this free world. Not really free .. but as long as you don’t end up screwed like Sarawak Tribune, that’s fine. But it was a tragic case doh … so sad … oops, no depressing stories.

I was ask a question by one of my friend during lunchtime a few days ago. She asked me "Is Eugene your dream gal?" - not really like that, but means that la. I haven’t finished my sentence la and she asked again - " Have you found your Eugene?" .. walau ehh … I said nope. Eugene is one of a kind. Ha ha ha .. You won’t find it easily in Malaysian market .. ha ha ha .. have to fly to Korea man! She’s (Eugene) my dream gal, ha ha ha .. I would trade anything for something like that. I know la "sarangi, shopping anha" (Love is not like shopping) but .. no explaination.

Well, life as a single, is not that bad. Don’t think of it as bad, then it’s not la. At least you can date anybody you want anytime. (Date doesn’t means that your hitting on that particular gal … araso?) Most people got this thinking that dating is only for those who are seeking partners .. Yah, Bichanha? Bichaso .. bichaso .. Juk eul le? .. so stop thinking that way. Life is like a box of chocolate, you’re eager to open what’s inside. Means that it’s full of surprises and adventure. Same goes for love and relationships. I think so … There was this saying I collected from "Everybody has Secrets". It says " Love appears like thunder, but it dissapears like fog " … Until next time. Signing off for more romance and love .. hugs and kisses from me, the one and only …

Regards,

Archibald

I hate this world .. they judge me … what the fuck is wrong when I was born as an Iban? What’s wrong with I don’t have anything now? Will I have nothing forever? farkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk ………………………

Have you ever loved somebody so much it makes you cry?
Have you ever needed something so bad, you can’t sleep at night?
Have you ever tried to find the words but they don’t come out right?
Have you ever?
Have you ever?

Have you ever? This song has been playing on my mind since last nite. I just can’t get it out of my head. But thinking of it really makes me want to cry sometimes. I know it sounds so girlish of me, but I must admit that I have a softer side of me which I think maybe none of my friends notice - only those who are dear to me. All night long I’ve been thinking, I regret making such decisions. I regret saying that I’m strong, I can take it but I know the fact that I’m not. Sometimes I just wonder how can I live my days a head of me by seeing someone that I really love everyday, knowing that she’s not mine anymore? I sometimes think that I just can’t stand doing that anymore.

I was cryin’ when I met you
Now I’m tryin’ to forget you
Your love is sweet misery
I was cryin’ just to get you
Now I’m dyin’ ’cause I let you
Do what you do to me
‘Cause what you got inside
Ain’t where your love should stay
Yeah, our love, sweet love, ain’t love
‘Til you give your heart away

Have you ever really really loved a person so much that you’d give your whole life if she’d come back to you? I did … I still am. I always stressed out that I’m big and strong enough to face it, I’m not. I’m deeply wounded. What more to say now that I know there’s somebody else’s taking over my place. People say :

"You don’t know how much that someone worth to you until you lose that someone"

I guess that’s pretty much true. I sometimes feel myself taking forgranted of what I have. I’ve been living in a lie all the time. I always look happy for the sake of others, but deep down inside it’s so … I don’t know how to describe the loneliness. I feel so empty. I guess now, loving somebody means letting that somebody go if it’s time for the love that you’d had, had to go. And knowing that she will be free and be happier with someone else. When I see her so happy, how I wished it was me that made her feel that way … when the tears rain down, how I wished that I was the one who’d wiped the tears away. I wish she’d look at me the way she look at him, those beautiful eyes looking deep into mine. Telling me more than any words could say, but it doesn’t really matter now. All I am to you, is the invisible man.

Here I go so dishonestly
Leave a note for you my only one
And I know you can see right through me
So let you go and you will find someone

It really hurt me deep because after all that we’ve been through together, after all the pain and sufferings, I have to let you go. Thanks for all the lovely memories that we had together. I would just say, thank you for being a part of my life, thanks for being my only one after all this time. I wish you all the best in your life. It’s hard to swallow, but I’ll bear the pain. I don’t mind. Thanks …

THANK YOU FOR LOVING ME
By: Bon Jovi

It’s hard for me to say the things
I want to say sometimes
There’s no one here but you and me
And that broken old street light
Lock the doors
We’ll leave the world outside
All I’ve got to give to you
Are these five words when I

Thank you for loving me
For being my eyes
When I couldn’t see
For parting my lips
When I couldn’t breathe
Thank you for loving me
Thank you for loving me

I never knew I had a dream
Until that dream was you
When I look into your eyes
The sky’s a different blue
Cross my heart
I wear no disguise
If I tried, you’d make believe
That you believed my lies

Thank you for loving me
For being my eyes
When I couldn’t see
For parting my lips
When I couldn’t breathe
Thank you for loving me
Thank you for loving me

You pick me up when I fall down
You ring the bell before they count me out
If I was drowning you would part the sea
And risk your own life to rescue me

Lock the doors
We’ll leave the world outside
All I’ve got to give to you
Are these five words when I

Thank you for loving me
For being my eyes
When I couldn’t see
For parting my lips
When I couldn’t breathe
Thank you for loving me
Thank you for loving me

When I couldn’t fly
Oh, you gave me wings
You parted my lips
When I couldn’t breathe
Thank you for loving me
Thank you for loving me
Thank you for loving me,
For loving me

Thank You For loving me,

Regards,

Daddy

Hello peeps, I’m free today. No class, no hassle, no work .. haegu .. but I got exam tomorrow. My Mathematical Economics paper. Done a lil bit of revision (in fact very little). I went to my faculty to go online just now, but sad … the lab is closed due to maintenence activities. Swell, I went upstairs to the another lab. It’s empty but the pc is kinda slow. So, I decided to walk out and head for the cc, at least I paid a good sum of money for a faster and more efficient internet service, also satisfaction guarenteed!

I received an email from a fren this morning. She said she’s currently working out on a drama and she told me how she love acting. I must that I was a lil bit "jeles". I mean, she can do what she wanted to do. She loves acting and she’s taking broadcasting now. I was like .. WOW! at 21 .. you are doing what you want to do and me? I’m still studying … still thinking of how to live my life in a proper way. Yeah .. I know you might be sick of me whining about not being able to make my decision on wether to go to the industry or not. But well .. it’s always a dilemma for me. (no matter what i do .. all I can think about is you!—-> it suddenly appeared on my mind). What do you think? I mean for those who have heard my singing … do you guys think I can go far? Do you think that I have what it takes to succeed at the highest level? Being in a very "sempit" market of music is not easy. I don’t want to be a flop like the "POPSTARS". Where are they now? Nobody knows right? I thought that they sing quite well .. Kucurah segalanya, syurga cinta di something asmara .. I like that song, and so is my whole family. But it doesn’t seems to please Malaysian music listeners. It’s very difficult being in a very "orthodox" thinking market. It’s ridiculous!!

What sells in Malaysia .. ermm .. let me think … Mawi!!! The phenomenal singer .. I don’t think he sings well. But why? He he he .. I don’t know. But he sells here in Malaysia. But frankly, I would not do what he did. I mean the songs. Well, different people has different taste of music. So, to be in the market we must respect people. So, salute brader. Later on I’ll be raided by "maki hamun" by the MawiFC.

Another singer, Daniel Lee of Malaysian idol. I saw his performances a few times. At first it was hard for me to believe that he’s the Malaysian Idol, frankly speaking, I don’t even want to vote for him. But, you see … given opportunity, he has improved a lot I must say. Eventhough I’m not a big fan of him, but I must compliment him for his efforts in improving himself. Keep up the good work. I like the mimpi song in both mandrin and malay versi.

Well, I think that’s just enough of the examples that I would like to share with you guys. You guys are free to comment on it. One of my song, titled Miracle, I tried to put it ion this blog, but I think cannot because it’s friendster and it’s not something that I pay for. Well, if you guys have any multiply, can clik here and listen to the song (No Music la). Provide that you have a multiply account la.